“I hear the secrets that you keep
When you’re talking in your sleep…”
-The Romantics
My husband is pissed at me. Or, he says he’s not pissed, but he is acting somewhat peevy. All of the sudden, he keeps harping on all the “secrets” I have been keeping from him and how how can he believe anything I say, and how much am I not saying to him? How much am I hiding from him?
My crime?
To set the scene… Bromance and his wife have been undergoing fertility treatment awhile. This was a tidbit I originally heard from my husband, and was later confirmed when WOB told me at their barbecue. I knew when they were going in for their second (third?) round of in vitro, and I knew when WOB would be going in for her blood test to check for the pregnancy hormones. Coincidentally, the day of the blood test was the day before we all went out for dinner last weekend. I told my husband they were having a blood test that day, and I told him I wasn’t sure if I would ask her about it or not.
Flash to the dinner table and WOB orders water with lemon. She’s not really a “order water with dinner” kind of woman. I am still getting to know her, but, that much I know. She’s not a raging alcoholic, but she does tend to order either an “adult beverage” or at the least, Diet Coke, with dinner. Nope, she was sipping water. Instantly this triggered my pseudo-Spidey-sense/woman’s intuition, and I started thinking to myself, “Hmmmm. Maybe.”
Later in the evening, WOB and I ventured to the restroom (yes, in pairs and no it wasn’t intentional – I may be female, but I can and do go to the bathroom all by myself, I swear). I decided to seize the moment and ask how the blood test went. She said, “Veeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrry well.” She said they were keeping it on the downlow, as they had another bloodtest scheduled to make sure everything was still on track, and obviously, this is very early on in the pregnancy game and anything can happen.
So that was my dilemma: Tell my husband or not?
They wanted to keep it quiet. They were still wanting more confirmation about the pregnancy. And, to be honest, I felt that Bromance should be able to tell his own friends about his impending fatherhood on his own. I mean, that’s half the fun, right? Telling people? In my internal debate (of which there was much), I ultimately decided I wanted Bromance to have a chance to tell people on his time table, in his way.
So I kept quiet.
Zip forward to last night. My husband went to hang with Bromance, and came home and mentioned that he heard all about the secret I was keeping from him. His argument is that people assume when they tell one half of a couple something, that they will automatically tell their spouse, and they expect it, and that it’s okay. I say that’s the stupidest damn thing I’ve heard. When my BFF tells me something in confidence, I am reasonably certain that she doesn’t expect that I’ll share it with my husband. I don’t do that. Likewise, if I tell her in confidence though it’s possible that she tells her husband, do I expect it? No.
Since this was the second such incident lately where someone had asked me to keep something on the DL and my husband later found out, he is on the warpath thinking that I have all sorts of secrets. And… well… maybe I do, to an extent.
My sister’s boyfriend recently lost his job. My husband doesn’t really like the guy (could be because my youngest daughter has a habit of calling the boyfriend “daddy” – I don’t know why, I have no reasoning for it). He is forever harping on my sister’s boyfriend: he’s spoiled, he’s too preppy, he’s too whatever. When my sister told me her man had lost his job, and asked me not to say anything to anyone, I didn’t. I understood because my husband has been laid off before – her boyfriend was embarassed and ashamed to not have his job and was feeling bad about himself. Factor in that my husband already doesn’t like him and would probably use that information as one more reason why the boyfriend was a jerk, well… I didn’t have any problem respecting my sister’s wishes. Then, my sister spilled the beans to my husband and it became ONE MORE THING I wasn’t telling him.
He says he is not mad, but he keeps bringing up my “secrets”. He seems to feel strongly that what is told to one partner should be shared with the other (I have examples of his hypocrisy, but I don’t push it – because frankly I don’t want to know everyone else’s business, and maybe I’m just in the vast minority there). When you tell a friend something, do you expect that they will tell their spouse/significant other? When someone tells you something, do you figure telling your honey is a given – that your friend won’t mind and that they expect it? Discuss. I’d like to know if I’m way off base here…

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June 18, 2008 at 11:20 am
Melanie
I started to qualify this with “yes, I expect some people to tell their spouse, but only my close friends and my brother” but I realized that’s not true. I think I expect anyone who’s part of a long-term couple – married or not – to share with their SO. But not in a gossipy way, just as a “here’s what happened today” kind of way, or if my name comes up in conversation. And it doesn’t bother me, really.
I probably wouldn’t, but I say that having not been part of a couple in a REALLY long time. But I might, unless the person specifically asked me not to.
But I do think it’s wrong that your husband has characterized this as “secret-keeping.” I mean, if the other person has asked you not to tell, it’s really just honoring their request. And even if they haven’t asked you not to tell, it’s just you acting in the way that you think is most responsible and appropriate. It’s not as if you didn’t tell him in order to have more information than he has, or to use it against him, or whyever the hell he thinks you did it.
He needs to relax and remember that the two of you, although married, are still TWO people. Not one.
June 18, 2008 at 12:46 pm
danaofthebells
I normally tell my SO everything. This includes things that people tell me in confidence. He tells me things that people tell him in confidence. However, we both keep this information to ourselves. We don’t tell others, outside the both of us, everything about our lives. If I know that he’ll go shouting something from the rooftop, then I don’t tell him until I can find a way to make him less… enthusiastic. If he knows that telling me something trivial will send me off on the warpath against whomever… he keeps his mouth shut until the situation is passed or I realize that there’s nothing I can do about it. This is generally done rather nonchalantly. It’s not a big secret giving conference. It’s simply something that happened that day that we should share.
Keep in mind, however, that they’re not technically your secrets. They are other people’s. There is a difference between not letting your husband know that his best-friend’s wife is pregnant and that you are pregnant. You could always pull the simple: I don’t want to be a gossip… if he keeps harassing you.
June 18, 2008 at 12:53 pm
Lyrically Me
Great perspectives so far…
I don’t mind if I’m wrong. Honestly. Hearing other perspectives and reasons why others would or would not tell is what I was hoping to hear, and do appreciate.
And Danaofthebells, it’s funny – the day I found out I was pregnant for my youngest, I tried and tried and tried to reach my husband ALL DAY. I tried email. No response. His cell phone. No answer. His office phone. No answer. Meanwhile, a girlfriend of mine knew I was due to pee on a stick and SHE called. And because I am a shitty liar, she knew right away I was pregnant. So, um, she knew before he did. But it wasn’t a secret. I just couldn’t find the man!!!
June 18, 2008 at 1:03 pm
KyLydia
It’s tough, because there are situations where I would tell and where I wouldn’t. It depends on what the information is, I suppose. As you pointed out, something as big as a pregnancy that’s on the DL for obvious reasons wouldn’t be shared until I got the go-ahead from the involved parties. If it’s a I-heard-from-my-mom-that-my-high-school-gym-teacher-is-getting-a-divorce kind of information, then it’s probably likely that I’ll tell him. I expect the same action from him (although he tells me more than I would tell him, I think).
Conversely, if it’s a super-close friend that I share my secrets with, I expect them to respect those secrets. If I wanted to tell that person’s significant other then I would. I don’t guess I can ever assume that someone won’t tell, though.
June 18, 2008 at 1:07 pm
Lyrically Me
If it had been something like: “Um, he’s sick. My best friend’s sister’s boyfriend’s brother’s girlfriend heard from this guy who knows this kid who’s going with the girl who saw Ferris pass out at 31 Flavors last night. I guess it’s pretty serious.” , well, I totally would have told him…
June 18, 2008 at 10:06 pm
Contessa Confessa
If a friend asks me to keep something confidential, I’ll take it to the grave. PROMISE. I tell NO ONE (and that means absolutely NO ONE).
I keep secrets. lots…. and why? because, to date, no one in my life has ever been able to keep a freaking secret SECRET. They blab… and somehow it ALWAYS gets back to me (and obviously I know that they did NOT keep my secret).
So, I no longer share my secrets– with anyone. Except, of course, with my blog… *wink*